Recently I wrote an email about what inspired me... Here is an edited version...
So you graduated from college - what was you course? Do you think it helped you in your position? So many people in the Philippines graduate college and then find work in totally unrelated fields... One of the best computer people I know in Dumaguete is a lady with a Psych Degree! I always wondered if that made her a better at her job!
For me, well, some would consider me dumb or poor... Others unique or eccentric. Perhaps my grandmother was the first to see the difference in me, as a small boy she gave me a plaque which simply said...
If a man does not keep pace with his companions,
perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.
Let him step to the music which he hears,
however measured or far away.
- Henry David Thoreau
Years later, in the early years of my high school, I became a drummer in our marching band. The "music" or drum rhythms I composed to march to when the band was not playing won our school the highest drum corp honors at every event we entered during my time there. Our Band Director was quoted in the TV news and newspapers that the reason we won was because I had taught our student body to march to the beat of a different drummer.
I dropout of high school but returned to finish. I was a troubled boy during a troubled time... But I went on to help invent both the personal computer and the internet... I find inspiration in paragraphs like this one...
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”
-from A Return to Love, by Marianne Williamson.
I went on to work for USA and Philippine Governments at high levels... I was an Internet Pioneer in the Visayas, literally installing the first Internet server in Negros and later hand building the largest pre-telecom ISP in the Visayas. I own http://visayas.net/ - the Visayas Network Domain name and I am trying to figure out what to do with it?
During all this work in the Philippines for a couple decades, I never owned a pair of shoes! My Genius I.Q. makes tying shoes a problem for me and it is hard to find Velcro dress shoes... Perhaps this can be better explained with the words of Diane Holcomb...
Don’t Ever Be Afraid To Be Yourself - Diane Holcomb
In a world of comparisons
make your own statement.
Honor your own truth.
Have the courage to be yourself;
risk, speaking your own thoughts
and claiming your emotions.
Share your vulnerabilities,
fears, doubts, and insecurities;
let others experience the real you.
Have the courage to be yourself,
and realize that you are
a wonderful person.
I am myself - a totally self made, self educated man with a special gift from God.
So I wonder, how open minded are you?